安全感

什么是没有安全感勒。。。。

mm.....没有安全感应该就是人在生活中有种稳定的不害怕的感觉吧。。。

也可能是人类在生活中想太多造成的不安感觉吧。。。。

想想一直每天看起来很自信的我应该很少会有这样的问题。。。

不过。。。。。。其实很多时候都会默默的想很多东西。。。

为什么勒。。。

太爱想太会想。。。太喜欢去想很多可能也不可能发生的事。。。。

是为了避免尴尬还是未雨绸缪。。。

还是真的不知道到底是为什么。。。

算了。。。人类本来都很麻烦很乱。。。

随便啦。。。

爱想嘛给他爱想。。。

从小到大都这样。。。

虽然很累不过还是活了那么多年~~

有人说这样好像很累。。。为什么要逼自己去想太多。。。。

答不出。。。

因为真的很难控制。。。。

也许人越大越多事越多纠纷就要越想越多。。。。

不可能什么都不理吧。。。。。

人类是群体生活的。。。

不是独立生活的。。。

如果能做到叫每个人fuck off from my world也许就可能会不那么爱想了。。。

有一首歌。。。。叫想太多。。。。很久以前朋友失恋听了大哭的歌。。。

妳笑著說　他是朋友　但妳眼中太溫柔
我的不安　那麼沉重　只有妳不懂

他霸佔了妳的心中　屬於我的角落
所以妳說　我們　不是妳和我

是我想太多　妳總這樣說　但妳卻沒有　真的心疼我
是我想太多　我也這樣說　這是唯一能　安慰我的理由


我想我沒有　錯怪了什麼　雖然妳不說　或許錯在我
太晚我才懂　愛了妳太多

是我想太多　妳總這樣說　但妳卻沒有　真的心疼我
是我想太多　我也這樣說　這是唯一能　安慰我的理由

也许这就是想太多的理由吧。。。

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好久都没来这里玩了。。

最后一篇都还是2010时的。。

看回去觉得好幼稚。。。

跟GALFIE第一次分开这么长时间。。
也许真的习惯天天有她的感觉~
时间好快。。
希望她能安全抵达日本迎接新的挑战。。



今天不知为什么头脑一直浮现这首歌。。

我好想你-苏打绿

开了灯 眼前的模样
偌大的房 寂寞的床
关了灯 全都一个样
心里的伤 无法分享

生命
随年月流去 随白发老去
随着你离去 快乐渺无音讯
随往事淡去 随梦境睡去
随麻痺的心逐渐远去

我好想你 好想你 却不露痕迹
我还踮着脚思念 我还任记忆盘旋
我还闭着眼流泪 我还装作无所谓

我好想你 好想你 却欺骗自己

开了灯 眼前的模样
偌大的房 寂寞的床
关了灯 全都一个样
心里的伤 无法分享

生命 随年月流去 随白发老去
随着你离去 快乐渺无音讯
随往事淡去 随梦境睡去
随麻痺的心逐渐远去

我好想你 好想你 却不露痕迹
我还踮着脚思念 我还任记忆盘旋
我还闭着眼流泪 我还装作无所谓

我好想你 好想你 却欺骗自己

我好想你 好想你 就当作秘密

我好想你 好想你 就深藏在心


觉得歌词很特别很不错虽然很简单。。

意义很不同。。

听了好多遍。。。觉得对有些人特别适合

不知不觉都这样夜了

我该睡觉了

想想自己是个病人而且害到别人这么辛苦就很显。。。

对不起人的感觉很强烈。。。

内疚
抱歉
真的很抱歉

我不知他会怎样想。。
我真的不是故意的。。
如果我真的能做我肯定去做了。。。

也许不管怎样不介意不在意都还是会去想吧。。。

不过也许有人能帮助他让他开心吧让他觉得轻松吧~

酸溜溜的感觉不知怎么的涌出来了~

每天都在天马行空的想~

也许就是太爱想没安全感惹的祸吧~

要睡了。。。
不然真的休息不够就更加对不起人了。。。

my 21st birthday eve~~

well~~

this is a weird birthday~~

never experience this b4~~

stay at home alone~~

facing my laptop~

play dota with my "friends"~~

haha~~

i think they will be those who accompany me until 12am~~

it is totally different from the PAST!!!

ANYWAY,i am 21!!!

wow~~so freaking fast lar~~

2010 end dy~~

one more sem to go~~

then work work work until 55~~

haha~~

master?get it or?

haiz~~idk~~

got money = go~~

got scholarship = got money = go~~

dun wan to waste money anymore~~

wan smbody sponsor ~~

but if got high salary, go or?

haha~~of course i wont go~~as i dun think i will get that high salary after getting my master~~

there is an opportunity cost that i hv to face~~

both side got its pros and cons~~

i will get my result soon~~

hopefully, i can get the result that i expect~~

i dont wan to be sad~~~~~~~~plz~~

anyway, hapi birthday to myself~hapi 21!

My life~~

i am enjoying my life =)

Morning: bagun pagi, gosok gigi, cuci muka, makan sarapan, work.................................

Afternoon: eat lunch, work until 5 smthing~~

Evening: go back, gym or swimming, dinner~~

Night: Play games, online, PPS etc... and sleep!!!

sounds good???

wahaha~~

intern..

i started my internship on 1st DEC~~

it was pretty nice~~

my colleagues are nice~~

quite friendly =)

glad to have this kind of colleagues~~

but, i realized one thing in taylor's: every program is fighting with each other (for students)==

i didnt expect this situation occurs~~

i was pretty shocked when i saw that~~

selfish......selfish~~

mmmm......

i went to a cafe which i never been there b4 one - pepper corn for spaghetti~~

quite nice lar~~but that cafe is too small and dark + abit dirty~~so.....

today, i went to eat the most popular ROJAK in SS15 (special meeting for mktg department XD)~~

but i didnt find it special~~

i thought it will be those you tiao + tao pok + cucumber one~~

but it is not like that~

it is actually mee rojak without mee~~==

dunno why it is so popular~~

i have actually counselled two persons~~

dunno why~~i feel happy=)

next next week: taylor's open day~~

it will be a busy week for me~~

must gambateh ya!!

dunno wat to say~~

this sem....

dunno wat to say~~

seems like couldnt do well in everything~~

feel so sad when i c the result~~

i did smthing wrong b4?

dun really noe why....

speechless~~speechless~~

feel so guilty after seeing my result~~

wth is this i really dunno~~

i didnt get any return at all~~

effort 99% without 1% luck = no use~~

how???how>>>???how?????

no time for blog!!!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............

it is such a busy life!!!!

everyweek got almost 70 pages readings to do~~

i will study 70*13=910pages of readings in this sem!!!

so cool eh!!!

never think of this situation happen in my life!!

juz finish the most important presentation in this sem~~

hoooo....can relax dy~~

as i juz need to go to the class,sit there and listen to my classmates' presentation until the end of semester^^

such a happy thing!!

quite satisfied with my presentation~

i have oredi tried my best to do it~

have to improve my english~~seriously~~

i am lacking of vocabulary~~

haiz~~3rd years liao still noob like tat~~

felt so paiseh to use same words again and again~~

thanks for the feedback from my lecturer and classmates =)

i am really happy =D

i will and must be always well-prepared for my presentation!!

this makes me feel confident!!

suddenly thinking of the presentation that i did in ADP for mgmt class one~~

i was so nervous and blank during the presentation~~

but it makes me noe many things~~

i realize: if we pay a lot of efforts in doing our work, we will get the expectation that we wan~~

GOD is fair~~

this is wat i believe in^^

going to conduct my 1st pass session by tml^^

feel so excited!!

haha~~dunno why eh~

ok la~~

it is the time for me to prepare tml teaching materials lo^^

all the best to me^^haha:D